It was the morning I had been waiting for, the second day of the healing music festival just 10 minutes down the hill from my home.
I had enjoyed the great music and excellent sound quality the previous evening and chose to sleep in my own snug bed up the hill.
The next morning, the clouds closed in and the Thunder Beings sang their piece.
Despite paying for a full ticket, I chose to wait out the storm before I rolled back down to the festival grounds. Why? Because I sharply realized that I would be miserable roaming around in my rain poncho, trying to find a dry spot.
I could wait. I could also opt to go down for an hour or two. The most important thing is that I listened to my own counsel.
In the past, despite the weather, I would have definitely made sure I got every moment of my money’s worth, bracing against the discomfort.
I prefer to put the heroics aside and listen to what FEELS best to me. Yes, I LOVE music. It is a HUGE part of my life. I also love flowing instead of resisting, paddling downstream instead of churning against the current.
Maybe it’s my age, maybe it’s my maturity. I like to think that it’s because I honor myself enough not to fight unnecessary battles, to let life guide me, at least to the easy stuff. I also would like to think that this small event will be an example to me of how to apply it to the bigger, more major stuff. Like knowing in whose midst I feel the best in. Like agreeing to do something because I get a definite “Yes!” from inside and disagreeing because I feel that slight tug in my belly saying “Uh, no, this doesn’t suit me”.
It may sound trivial and mundane, but when I think about how many decisions I am called upon to make each day, some of them seemingly inconsequential, but later are revealed as key to a particular situation, I realize that for me, discernment and clarity is crucial to not getting embroiled in a laborious process of weeding out the important ones.
So here’s to hearing AND listening to my inner counsel, as often as possible. Here’s to being clear inside and hence outside.
Wishing you Joy and Clarity,
Love Rhonda
copyright Rhonda Joy Eagle, 2011
